FADE TO BLACK

Once every two leap years I have a good hair day. Today was that day. View high resolution

Once every two leap years I have a good hair day. Today was that day.

Pioneers! O Pioneers! - YouTube

My muse sent this to me today. I was left feeling bolstered with freshly acquired courage.

At 3:40am

Ambra woke me up.
And I feel a pit in my stomach.
Much is weighing on my mind.
Money.
Family.
Friends.
Heat.
And I miss Los Angeles
so very much right now.
It’s an aching and longing in my bones.
I’m here.
And I’m embracing this beautiful life I’m forging.
But it doesn’t mean that I don’t pine for what was at times.

teach me. teach me. to walk in the light. View high resolution

teach me. teach me. to walk in the light.

I just nailed my first film audition in Phoenix. I felt weightless in that room. It was euphoric. I’m ready to get back into the ring. 

(Image was taken in downtown Phoenix, paces away from the audition space) View high resolution

I just nailed my first film audition in Phoenix. I felt weightless in that room. It was euphoric. I’m ready to get back into the ring.

(Image was taken in downtown Phoenix, paces away from the audition space)

I take thee.

I had two friends put me in check tonight. I’m humbled. I take comfort in the uncomfortable suggestions offered by my trusted and esteemed colleagues. They tell me these things to hold a mirror up to my face. To purify me.

After pondering my plight, I feel that I need to forget my desires for a while. And help serve others. To get lost in service is to truly find oneself.

I don’t know what’s coming next, but I promise-it’s going to be noteworthy.

a savory spell.

Our time was still born
A dizzying dirge
Moves and counter moves
Grins and abducted glances
Trying to out smart one another
Desperate for a pat
Desperate for another moment
Watching you
Watching me
Straining my neck
Craving

Never enough
Never satisfied
Never satiated

First blush
Whispers
Connection
Contact
Weaving words
Music
Making music of our own
Fingers run through your hair
Kisses on my forehead
Fingers interlaced

Never enough
Never satisfied
Never satiated

As sudden and the storm arrived,
it cleared
Evaporating
Vanishing
Responsibility
Sobriety
Humility
Insecurity
On your part, and mine

Dropping everything-purely fear based
Walking away
Regretting nothing
But still vying for more
Longer days
Stronger, blacker nights
With you

I could.

Today I need a high performance car. I could drive it over a cliff. And still manage to survive.

A rebuilding period.

The splitting of assets was super tough on my household items. I’m determined to finish getting some basics, so that I’m not camping in my own flat by month’s end.

progress purchase:
I am officially a proud owner of a mature, stately trash can. It’s glorious to behold.

Up next//
1. Welcome mat
2. Dresser
3. Desk
4. Low speed internet

I was over the moon excited when artist Tahiti Pehrson did a re-gram of the photo I took of “Light Suspension.” Moments like this are thrilling to me. When I find an artist that’s inspiring. And then I slap a hashtag on the image-for other fans within that niche to appreciate. And then the artist sees it, and responds to me directly. This is the third time this has happened. And I love that I’ve been able to make a first hand connection. This wasn’t possible ten years ago. It’s incredibly exciting.

I’ve met in person (while working at MOCA in down town L.A.) Andre Saraiva. Who, I was totally star struck by. He liked some photos on IG that Ambra and I took with his work in Los Feliz.

Last year I pieced together the identity of street artist Morley. Who coincidentally-was my neighbor. It was rad telling him in real life how much I appreciate his work. Then it was doubly cool when he reached out to me twice on IG for photos I posted of his art.

I love this. There’s a myriad of crap things wrong with the internet. But this nougat is a joy to me.

nothing like it.

a stirring, thought provoking, stimulating conversation.

The half full and half empty hearts. New York, New York. c. 2014. Acrylic.